No bonus T_T

Sigh.. bad day.. no bonus for me T_T everyone came working with smiling face but as for me.. haiz.. needless to say la.. I dreamt of being debt free yesterday.. and now I realize that “I’ll never have a dream come true” LOL I’m disappointed.. but I’ll try looking at the bright side…erm..it’s kinda hard for me to accept the fact that my colleagues were given bonus where I got nothing T_T Cant blame anyone.. blame myself for not putting effort in the job..No mood liao.. 0% motivation… hehe.. It’s not the end of the world.. I guess it’s just another lesson that god trying to teach me.. Wing Seong..be strong o.. it’s just part of life ^_^

Am I complaining too much??

Another week gone.. been staying at home for the passed weekend. I went for an interview yesterday.. nearly involve in an accident on my way there.. didn’t notice a Kancil coming.. it was fast.. I think it’s travelling over 80km/h and luckily the driver are good enough to brake in time, otherwise.. I’ll be history.. this is the second time I nearly get hit there.. the previous one was about a year back.. -_-“ What if I was hit? What will happen after that? Mh.. I just cant imagine.. just don’t dare to imagine..anyway.. glad that I’m still around ^_^Well.. my friend Leong was staying at my house for few days.. perhaps he was right.. I complain too much , expect too much.. and I compare too much.. Frankly speaking.. I’m not satisfy with my live.. nor I enjoy it neither. There’s too much to think of, too much to worry about.. Sometimes I respect Leong for being able to accept the way how life goes.. not to say that I’m looking down on him or wat, he’s been 1yr plus jobless.. and yet he still manage to put a smile on his face easily ^_^ That’s what make him special.. Heard that he will start working this coming Tuesday .. Hope he’s happy with his job by then.. and as for myself.. I’ll try looking at the bright side of life.. it’s been a long time I never feel really really happy.. maybe I’ve been expecting too much.. comparing and complaining too much.. I’ll try to free my mind from worries ^_^ .. trying to accept how life goes.. I’ll try.. and I’ll keep on trying..

I'm Back ^_^

It’s been a week since I last updated my blog ^_^ Erm.. it’s easy owning one, but keeping it updated is another way round, probably because I’m running out of idea on what to type and kinda lazy updating =P Anyway…whenever I feel bored at the office, I’ll try to update this blog of mine =) ESOS went public listed few days ago.. and I’ve been monitoring the stock movement daily.. sigh.. it’s going lower and lower from day to day.. well..nothing much happening for the passed weekend.. been staying at home throughout the days.. kinda boring. Felt disappointed that bonus has yet to come last weekend.. cant wait for it.. cant wait to be debt free =) Er.. nothing much update on my job.. I’m kinda uncertain myself too.. as boss never really fire me.. just tell me to look for job.. I’ll be going for interview this Friday.. don’t have much hope of getting employed but I’ll give it a try then… just hope that everything goes out well for the week ^_^

Opportunities coming..

Um.. there are sign of hope.. I got 3 chances of getting myself a job. First one, Software engineer.. doing web programming I think..after browsing through the company’s website.. not a big company.. but there are much to learn.. Second, Software Quality assurance, mh.. this one involves mostly on testing.. a subsidiary of Genting group.. and the last one is not IT job.. more on sales/marketing for a MNC.. whatever it is..hope that I’ll be employed by any of them. It’s better than staying here.. sigh.. what’s worse is that I’ve been assigned numerous tasks lately.. having hard time right now.. wondering what reason should I give for taking EL for the interview session =( gonna crack my head soon..

Sleepless night....

Here i am again.. in the middle of the night.. just cant get into sleep...maybe because of having a short nap this evening =) Erm.. sometimes it feel nice.. waking up late a night if you cant sleep and then express yourself in everyway you like.. typing out the thoughts...the feelings.. and anything i feel like wanted to be told... sigh..tomorrow is working day already.. it's not that i'm scared going to work.. i just dont feel like working there.. just not suitable for me.. mh..i'm listening to a nice song =) Japanese song though.. title.. 'Say Anything' by X-Japan.. too bad.. the song is too big to be uploaded to the blog ... it's over 8 minutes long.. just cant fit into it =) Well.. i've been thinking of jobs and jobs and jobs lately.. instead many of my posts is regarding my work...sigh..i complain too much.. my mind just cant think of anything else to type.. completely blank.. except worries about my career.. nothing much happen lately.. been to karaoke with few of my ex-colleague =) not really enjoying.. but at least.. i get to meet them once in a while.. time flies... i'm going 26.. never really had any big achievement.. i cant imagine where am i few years later.. i really really hope to have a job that require to travel alot.. want more exposure going abroad.. feel kinda bored staying at malaysia.. but..too bad..never had the chance... just too bad.. argh.. head started to feel heavy.. think too much.. but i just cant stop thinking.. sometimes.. i feel like i'm lying to myself.. 'A simple life is a happy life' ? How many people can achieve that? Everyone striving for better lifestyle.. I can live a simple life.. but i prefer a better one.. instead everyone out there are prefering a better one.. that's what make life hard.. frankly speaking.. i'm not happy with my life ^_^ but i admit it's not a bad one though.. better than many people who still worry about where to get their meals.. comparing myself with them make me feel how lucky i am.. at least that makes my life worth living =) Alright.. enough of bullshiting.. time to force myself and get some sleep..otherwise.. it's gonna be MC again.. ^_^

Bad times...

Um.. am I having bad times? I don’t think so.. I think it may be worse few months later -_-“ I led a mediocre life… and I always believe that things happen for a reason.. the outcome can be good or bad.. no one can know for sure ..just like my current situation.. my job was at stake ^_^ I was given chance to secure the job.. if I were to show improvement and put in more effort.. I got to stay.. I can do that.. but I’m sure that’s not what I want.. just cant spend a few more years here.. not even a year.. so.. I choose to leave.. although I’m not sure what’s the outcome, at least leaving here give me hope.. Cant denied that I’ve made wrong choices before, not completing my degree is one wrong step.. I did regret.. but in return.. my dad, my brother won’t have to crack their head finding ways to support me.. I guess that’s worth it.. another one is switching to this company ^_^ I’ve lost time, interest , job concentration.. but I gain income, knowledge, experience and most important of all I realise how important it is to get the job you like… salary is an issue but from now on I think it’s the job function that’s more important. Anyway ..as I said.. everything happened for a reason.. we just have to live with it ^_^ no matter what’s the outcome and most important of all is to have FAITH in ourself!

Ex-colleagues =D

Erm.. this post is specially dedicated to my ex-colleague. Had lunch with few of them just now, it’s just nice to see these friends of mine once in a while.. =) Although I only work in 2 companies before, comparing the colleagues between these 2 companies, I like my ex-colleagues the most =D it’s not said that current one are not good.. but I just don’t feel happy working together with them.. ^_^ perhaps it’s my own problem and I admit it =) Just want to express my gratitude to my ex-colleagues that they teach and guide me a lot, especially my ex-senior – Anne ,big sis - Jessie, my ex-boss - Mr.Ong & James, ex- Junior- Seng Jge , Grace , buddies – Chin Heng and few friends of mine during my time at the previous company including : Piek Tin, Ying Mun, Piek Yiet, Swee Ching, Lai Peng, Michelle and Alice. ^_^ Although some already left the company =) but I still remember all of you.. and you guys/gals are just great ^_^

Mother's Day

While most of the people bringing their mum out for dinner or celebration, I'm sticking with my PC , accompanied by a friend of mine, Loong Chai ^_^ There's nothing much to do.. PC games is the only entertainment, and Hoong is sleeping like a pig in his room -_-" Didnt really have enough sleep.. because we slept at around 6am this morning and woke up at 14.00pm ^_^ Boring sunday.. well..there's no sign of job interview -_-" starting to worry already.. sigh.. guess.. i have to lower the expected salary at the resume already =)

Confused ~_~

I was on EL yesterday ^_^ because of sleepless night. SMS-ed my boss and tell her I don’t have enough sleep and need a day off. Then I received an email from her, listing out my out-standing tasks, telling me to put full commitment on that and will consider to retain me in the team ~_~ What the heck was that? I rather she sent me an email telling me that I was fired. For me..there’s no reason to stay.. I didn’t really like the job..it’s the pay that holding me back from resigning. Anyway, since what’s said is said.. it will be meaningless to continue working here. Well.. it’s not a bad news after all, as this will buy time for me to hunt for new job ^_^ by the way.. bonus coming out soon haha.. don’t want act stupid though =p

Aku kena goreng sotong ^_^

Dont laugh.. i'm telling the truth and i mean it... Erm.. actually i was expecting this since a long time ago.. I'm like being paid for surfing internet and doing simples tasks...Frankly speaking i'm not sad about that.. instead quite reflief as i dont see myself moving on if i was to stay until i resign myself.. this job is just too easy and boring..but the pay is good and benefit is acceptable.. that's what holding me from resigning.. Well.. i dont blame the management, instead quite pleased about them, boss are kinda considerate for offering me time to look for job, i'm not sure how long it is.. but i hope it's long enough to get myself a job ^_^ Although, i'm not unhappy, worrying about being jobless makes me stay awake.. i just cant get into sleep -_-" there are too many "what if" inside my mind right now.. The problem is.. my dad gonna worry abt me more than myself LOL.. how am i going to tell the old man.. -_-" Anyway.. i'm taking it as good.. as some kind of turning point for myself.. whether it's good or bad.. i'll have to go through.. LOL friends are just kinda sweet.. i've told them i got fired.. some flame me back for lying and bullshiting LOL , some just refuse to believe and took it as a joke ^_^ Perhaps, i joke too much.. or should i said i lie to much? Anyway..i never lie to them =) it's more like a joke than lie to me ^_^ Erm.. finally got an answer regarding my left eyes that never stop jumping before bali trip LOL It's not about tsunami or earthquake.. haha..it's about being jobless -_-" 3.48am .. zz.. feel sleepy..but my mind refuse to rest.. i wonder how am i going to make it to work later in the morning ^_^ Did some online job application just now hehe.. hopefully for more than 30 clicks.. one will hit =D even if it doesnt.. there's a long way to go.. ^_^ mother's day is just around the corner.. too bad my mom is not around anymore T_T but i knew she's always looking at me from above or below LOL well..mom.. happy mother's day and wish me luck in job hunting ^_^

Bored -_-"

That’s it, 3 days of holidays were over. Never really enjoy them as there’s nothing much to do then. Bike went punctured, forcing me to stay at home as all the workshop are closed for Labour Day. Went LAN gaming with Leong and Wai Chai the other night, met some friends there and was invited to join their team for competition ^_^ havent make up my mind though as I’m not really sure whether I’m free by then. I’m kinda feeling weird as the name ‘ws-‘ is gaining popularity among LAN game and battlenet -_-“ but it was nice being welcome by everyone. Sigh.. being popular in gaming is useless.. they wont know how boring I am in real life. I rather spend times with fren going out for a movie / karaoke or travelling around. Sigh.. but ..my friends.. all have their strong reason like.. having financial problem, need to accompany girlfriend, need to gain extra level in game, lazy, too far,.. anything you can think of. Erm..it’s more like an excuse than a reason to me.. Nvm la.. never want to force anyone, so I just have to stick at the PC lor.. -_-“ damn boring..