Sleepless night....

Here i am again.. in the middle of the night.. just cant get into sleep...maybe because of having a short nap this evening =) Erm.. sometimes it feel nice.. waking up late a night if you cant sleep and then express yourself in everyway you like.. typing out the thoughts...the feelings.. and anything i feel like wanted to be told... sigh..tomorrow is working day already.. it's not that i'm scared going to work.. i just dont feel like working there.. just not suitable for me.. mh..i'm listening to a nice song =) Japanese song though.. title.. 'Say Anything' by X-Japan.. too bad.. the song is too big to be uploaded to the blog ... it's over 8 minutes long.. just cant fit into it =) Well.. i've been thinking of jobs and jobs and jobs lately.. instead many of my posts is regarding my work...sigh..i complain too much.. my mind just cant think of anything else to type.. completely blank.. except worries about my career.. nothing much happen lately.. been to karaoke with few of my ex-colleague =) not really enjoying.. but at least.. i get to meet them once in a while.. time flies... i'm going 26.. never really had any big achievement.. i cant imagine where am i few years later.. i really really hope to have a job that require to travel alot.. want more exposure going abroad.. feel kinda bored staying at malaysia.. but..too bad..never had the chance... just too bad.. argh.. head started to feel heavy.. think too much.. but i just cant stop thinking.. sometimes.. i feel like i'm lying to myself.. 'A simple life is a happy life' ? How many people can achieve that? Everyone striving for better lifestyle.. I can live a simple life.. but i prefer a better one.. instead everyone out there are prefering a better one.. that's what make life hard.. frankly speaking.. i'm not happy with my life ^_^ but i admit it's not a bad one though.. better than many people who still worry about where to get their meals.. comparing myself with them make me feel how lucky i am.. at least that makes my life worth living =) Alright.. enough of bullshiting.. time to force myself and get some sleep..otherwise.. it's gonna be MC again.. ^_^