Time to improve !!!

Feel so toturing to wake myself up today.. how I wish today is public holiday so that I can sleep for the whole morning.. But things never goes the way I want..nothing much I can do.. have to force myself to wake up and go for work again.. anyway.. It’s not a bad thing though.. at least it means I’m still capable of waking up and earn myself a living.. Hm. I’ve always thought of upgrading myself.. but this devil in me is just hard to conquer.. instead I think most people are having this kind of problem too =D well at least I am.. Laziness is a big problem.. I think there are only few things which can make me move my a** =)

1. If I am unemployed and dying for a job
2. If someone important force/encourage me to
3. If I got a high fever and went mad

However.. I did tried starting, but it always end up in smoke.. just don’t have much determination.. Evil always win =D sometimes.. kinda angry over myself for giving up so easily or being so lazy =( and I envy those who can concentrate so much on upgrading himself/herself.. I’m getting old.. if I were to continue this kind of attitude.. I didn’t see myself going anywhere.. An analyst programmer is not what I want to be for my whole life.. If I wasn’t able help myself.. I believe no one can help me.. It’s just a matter of whether I want to improve or not.. Well.. I’ll try.. pray for me ^_^